This is a pretty morbid topic but one that I really need to get off my chest today.
Over the last six months or so I have been struggling with a fear of death. The fear of someone close to me dying and having to live without them.
My Nana died at 55 so now that my Mum is in her early 50s my fears have gotten a little out of control. The logical side of my brain knows that just because Nana died when she was 55 doesn’t mean that Mum will too (I mean does everyone die at exactly the same age as their parent? No), but the emotional side of my brain needs a little more convincing. And it’s not just a fear of my Mum dying, it’s a fear of losing my husband, my Dad, a sibling, a grandparent, a friend. It’s honestly driving me nuts.
As a Christian I feel a bit guilty having this fear as we are told in 1 Thessalonians 4:13-14:
“But I would not have you to be ignorant, brethren, concerning them which are asleep, that ye sorrow not, even as others which have no hope. For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so them also which sleep in Jesus will God bring with him.”
Last night my husband and I watched the movie Coco which, if you haven’t seen it, is all about the day of the dead. I cried at the end thinking about my Nana and the thought of losing others. Later as I was trying to get to sleep I decided that I was done submitting to this fear of death. In Luke 12:25 Jesus says to us, “Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life?”. There was literally no use in my worrying, in fact it was doing more harm than good. I prayed to God that he would help me.
Within the next minute, a phrase from the bible popped into my head.
“Let the dead bury their dead”
If you read the rest of this verse in Luke 9:60, it says, “But go thou and preach the kingdom of God”.
I have been focusing on the wrong thing. Instead of focusing on my fear of losing those close to me, I need to focus on sharing the hope of the kingdom in which we will have eternal life and there will be no more death. I need to focus on life and appreciate the life that is around me.
Do you share this fear? If so, what helps you?
“And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away” ~Revelation 21:4